Well I'm outside your doorstep.. waiting
I'm not sure if I want to come in.
I'm just as helpless as I wanna be.
I'm waiting.. for something to thrill me
I'm waiting for something to change....
In my mind everything visited me at the same time
Your naked body and the dirty dishes
Your words "I love you so much" and all they carried
Your childish despair in trying to be the center of the universe.
Your naked body.....I once called it my private shelter.
I remember you. But not this you. The other you.
The one that I knew once.
Yes-I remember you.
I feel that my life stands at this crossroads...
I feel that it's a time of changes...
Something is ending inside of me..
And it's as rotten as it could be
But I'm also giving birth to something else..
Just as if all my sins gathered for a feast
And I'm their host..
Heaven is a longer walk than I ever expected it to be....
I also bleed...now and then...
So don't shoot me that much..
The lines get sharper from day to day..
the just feed my sense of lunacy
how could I be caught without my protection walls setted up propperly?
How could all end?
How was it?
Where was the wrong turn?
yeah but you know....It's raining....
and I'm outside...
I'm not so sure about this step.